I have been doing pretty good this cycle and as a result its gone by SO fast....I think mainly because I haven't been temping this cycle! I'm already on CD12....but I'm getting ready to ovulate and very emotional so it doesn't make for a pretty day.
But of course....today it all came crashing down because for my child development quiz all the essay questions were about conception, pregnancy and child birth. Three things that I'm not good at. And here I sit bawling my eyes out as I write my essay questions. Go figure. If only my child development professor could see me now. Oh precious moments.
The other day I got out my positive pregnancy test from when I was pregnant with Jayda (I know I'm such a sicko) because I was so tired of seeing negtives. I never thought it would be so hard to see those two lines again. If I had you bet I'd be peeing all over the hundreds of pregnancy tests I had and soaked it up for the 6 months I was pregnant. Don't get me wrong though, I feel so grateful that I've at least seen those two lines when so many others haven't. So I do count my blessings there.
In class the other day we were talking about child birth yadda yadda yadda. My professor asked the class who had given birth before. I half way rose my hand because somehow I feel like I didn't. Like I shouldn't be counted in the "club". I think one of my preemie mom friends Michelle Haddock describes it best today. "I have an almost 2 year and I've never held a newborn." It's completely how I feel wrapped up in one little sentence.