There it is...it just sucked. I woke up this morning feeling exhausted...I hate mornings like that. But I had to motivate myself and got dressed and went to the gym. Usually after I work out I feel energized and ready to take on the day. Today wasn't that day. You know those days that you just want to sit and eat a bunch of crap? That was me today. I don't know if I am just PMSing or what since my period is due on Thursday or Friday but I just felt so low. I logged into facebook today to find someone ELSE was pregnant. I think everyone is pregnant but me. Wah wah right? Well if you don't like my complaining then you can stop reading my posts because this is therapy for me so you can just hit the road.....jack... :) I know I'm such a lovely person to be around today, aren't I?
I'm thinking about taking a break from it all. From BBC and deactivating my account on facebook. It's all just a lot for me right now and I think that it would help my relationship with my husband more. I seem to either A. be on the computer or B. depressed about seeing another person drop to the disease I want so badly. So I think that might help. I think Zuckerburg created facebook to slowly ruin my life. That and make unfertile people feel like crap.
I hate to say it but today it was one of those days that I couldn't help but disect every symptom. One minute I think "for sure I am pregnant" and then the next I'm like "there's no way I am". I wanted to keep myself busy by doing things but I was just so gosh dang tired! And then its like torture. I've decided I am going to wait til my AF is late though before I test because I am SO sick of seeing negatives and finding any possible light in the house that could show any "possible" line thats just a figment of my imagination. Those test companies REALLY had me going there for awhile....they know how crazy one can get and they LOVE it.
Luckily tomorrow my husband has the day off so I'm going to get my one hour massage and my pedicure!! Yeah! Hopefully that will take the edge off!