Saturday, December 17, 2011

Update on everything

So my hubby is doing better. Not fully but he'll get there. His biggest issue is that his stomach hurts so bad he can't eat and thats what causes him to be so sick. If only he could eat and his stomach wouldn't be sour he would be ok and thats what is giving him anxiety. He did a lot yesterday though. He went and played basketball for a little at the park by our house even though it was very difficult for him. He choked down a small bown of Kashi cereal, had a half piece of bread, some gatorade and a few bites of chicken noodle soup. And thats a big improvement. Then he went and took his last final (go figure) and he failed it which means he failed the class. Talk about an anxiety boost. He is going to try to email his teacher and explain what is going on and hopefully he'll be more lienient on him. We'll see. But its not the end of the world to fail a class. We have all done it. So I'm trying to reassure him with that.

Then he went to work even though he was freaking out about it. He said he almost left a few times because he felt so sick but pushed through. I was really proud of him for doing that. So hopefully he'll keep making little improvements here and there. I'm going to try to take him out tonight for our anniversary and see how he does. My parents gave us a giftcard to Outback (his favorite) so I'm gonna try to get him to eat that. Hopefully he keeps it down.

As far as TTC that may be put on hold for now. I think that may be contributing to his anxiety and I don't want that for him. I told him we could skip next cycle and he doesn't want to since he wants a baby just as bad as I do but I think it might be best. We'll see how he is this next week but we have to make a decision soon after Christmas since I am due Christmas Eve (evil body) and I have to start the femara CD3. I went in for my blood draw yesterday (it was 18.6 so def suprise there). I doubt anything has happened this cycle. This is the most stressed I've felt in a long time and been shaking in anxiety most days so I doubt thats good for my body. But I told the nurse what was going on and that we may be skipping next cycle but to call in the femara anyways. We will definatly be skipping the sperm analysis this cycle though. No way Jose. So right now its all up in the air. I'm more focused on getting him better to where he can just function. Poor guy.

BTW: Thank you for the comments on the anxiety posts. I appreciate it. We will definatly keep those things in mind if this therapy doesn't work for him. Anxiety is so real and many people deal with it. Its hard to understand unless you have suffered from it or have seen someone close to you deal with it. Its so hard to watch the people you love go through something like that especially when you can't take it away. Its the worst feeling in the world.


  1. My brother has the same issue with eating and being in social settings as well. His weight had dropped to the point where him and I weighed the same, and he hated going out in public. He sees a psychiatrist now (but he has several other issues on top of just anxiety) and is in the process of seeing a psychotherapist. Just know that you and your husband aren't alone. As I was reading your post I was like wow, that could be my brother. My brother until recently couldn't figure out why he had such severe stomach issues, and nearly saw a gastroenterologist instead before we put the pieces together. I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. Just know it does get better. It takes time, but it does get better. It's just a matter of finding the right combination of medication and treatment, but it will all work out. (Hugs).

  2. I was so happy to hear that he was able to finally go to work! Keep up the good work Chase, we are all rooting for you!!