Well the dr messaged me today and told me that we should continue with "the plan" and keep doing the clomid. I had mentioned that I was getting discouraged and he just said not to get discouraged because even if you do everything right you only have a 1/5 shot every month. Well then why can crack whores get pregnant on a drunken night? Lucky bastages.
No but in all seriousness. I do get it. I mean it did take us 3 months to get pregnant the first time so really its only been 2 months of ovulating. So although I've been trying now for about 13-14 months it's really like 2 months. I'm just getting impatient.
Today has already gotten so much better. I took a tylenol PM and slept like a rock. Then I woke up and ran 3 1/2 miles. I haven't done that in so long and it felt so good especially because outside it smelled like fresh rain. Mmmmmm I love that smell. I am also going to get into shape again. My eating and exercise habits have kind of gone downhill so I need to get back on the bandwagon. If I'm not going to be pregnant I sure as heck am going to be skinny!
Another change I am doing is I'm taking a facebook break for awhile and deactivated my account. It's just really hard to log in everyday to ultrasound pictures or "It's a BOY" announcements. It just breaks my heart a little more each time and I hate it. And it seems like its everyday that I find out that someone else is pregnant and it just reminds me how much I just want to be pregnant so bad. So I think a good facebook cleanse is what I need right now.
Also next week we are going to disneyland!! Jayda is going to freaking love it! I can't wait to take her.
This weekend we went up to Orem to see my sister and I met up with a very good preemie mom of mine. I'll post that later today or tomorrow. Shhhh I really should be doing homework right now. Blogging sounds like more fun. :)