Well the dr messaged me today and told me that we should continue with "the plan" and keep doing the clomid. I had mentioned that I was getting discouraged and he just said not to get discouraged because even if you do everything right you only have a 1/5 shot every month. Well then why can crack whores get pregnant on a drunken night? Lucky bastages.
No but in all seriousness. I do get it. I mean it did take us 3 months to get pregnant the first time so really its only been 2 months of ovulating. So although I've been trying now for about 13-14 months it's really like 2 months. I'm just getting impatient.
Today has already gotten so much better. I took a tylenol PM and slept like a rock. Then I woke up and ran 3 1/2 miles. I haven't done that in so long and it felt so good especially because outside it smelled like fresh rain. Mmmmmm I love that smell. I am also going to get into shape again. My eating and exercise habits have kind of gone downhill so I need to get back on the bandwagon. If I'm not going to be pregnant I sure as heck am going to be skinny!
Another change I am doing is I'm taking a facebook break for awhile and deactivated my account. It's just really hard to log in everyday to ultrasound pictures or "It's a BOY" announcements. It just breaks my heart a little more each time and I hate it. And it seems like its everyday that I find out that someone else is pregnant and it just reminds me how much I just want to be pregnant so bad. So I think a good facebook cleanse is what I need right now.
Also next week we are going to disneyland!! Jayda is going to freaking love it! I can't wait to take her.
This weekend we went up to Orem to see my sister and I met up with a very good preemie mom of mine. I'll post that later today or tomorrow. Shhhh I really should be doing homework right now. Blogging sounds like more fun. :)
Doc is absolutely right. It took three cycles for us to get Elisa. Maybe third time's the charm?? But don't give up on it yet, it will happen. Just when you put all that time together it's sooo frustrating.
ReplyDeleteHave fun in Disneyland, how exciting! I hope things will start looking up for you and your uterus. :)
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel, we've been TTC for over 3 years, but I've only ovulated 2 times in 3 years. So I too am impatient but know that I haven't given my body enough chances. It's just hard to be patient when we want it so badly.
ReplyDeleteGood for you for taking some time away from facebook, you don't need those kind of painful reminders. Just focus on the good things and I know your miracle will come=) Have fun in Disneyland and I hope this next round of clomid is your last!